Awkward

That awkward moment when just after losing your job your idiot boyfriend thinks calling you lazy is a good idea...time for a rethink!

That is all...

Lightbulb moment

That awkward moment when you realise the difference between pity and love and that never the twain should meet... that is all!

Passed at last!

Insomnia has struck again for the first time in a while so I thought I'd pop online for a little update...

Yay, passed my test on Georgies birthday 19/1.  Thomas told me the morning of the 27/12 (which was my wedding anniversary, also the forth time I failed), 'You will pass next time Mum', and he was right (it would seem that the 27/12 is my personal Friday the 13th and I shouldn't set out to succeed at anything on that particular day!).  When I picked them up from school and told them both the first thing he said was 'I told you so', I have never seen him so positive about anything in his life it was bizarre. 

A lot had to be said for meditation too as I am pretty sure that is what got me through.  I was told by a friend to take some beta-blockers but figured driving drug induced would probably not be the best way to tackle anything, especially those miserable instructors.  I was also pretty worried that they would become a  driving tool like glasses and I would have to result in pill popping every time I get into the car, which obviously isn't the best idea ever so drug taking was out but the meditation has stuck.

I should have started the meditation years ago it is great I am so much more patient and calmer.  I am not going to start ranting about meditating but if you do need some peace in your life, it is definately worth a look!

Anyway the driving lark has only taken me 20 years but I got there in the end... although I did think thought the instructor was only joking when she had said I had passed. 

I have a car now which also feels really good, (its not the first one I have ever had but the less said about that the better!)  I keep looking out of the window to check because I can't quite believe its mine.    

On another note South Africa and the Safari has been booked for the 1st of April so I will keep you posted when I have all the holiday pictures!