Onwards and Upwards......

Right well yesterday I sort of chickened out on the whole leaving work thing.  I had set my mind to it around the 2am mark but come 9am started panicking and went in anyway, to be fair I sort of wish I hadn't bothered.

My heart just isn't in it anymore!  Question - can your heart ever be in that sort of job?  (urm, nope!)  The only reason I have tolerated it for so long is because the hours are good, fit in with the kids school and the money wasn't too bad for a part time job either.  Most of the people who work there have options though and generally walk out after a few months but then they have us mums (and some dad's, before I get into trouble.... not really though!) by the short and curly's.  We need them and they like it, so we seem to hang on in there until the death! 

I gave them 1 year and 3 months of my life, I swear they should be grateful for that, if it hadn't of been for the wonderful friends I have met there I wouldn't have made it that long, although there has to come a time when having a chat with your mates isn't the only reason you go to work.  If they'd have known surely they would have sacked me ages ago, or so you would have thought, although I have been putting that particular ball in their court for ages and they haven't bitten, so I had to jump! and here we are.  Now if you think what I have said about my job applies to every job, seriously you haven't tried telesales.  It is a whole new world of smashing your head into a wall whilst losing the will to live........

I always found it quite a shock when people decided to listen to what I had to say and spent the entire call wondering, why? (sometimes I drifted off completely into dream world and would often wonder what the hell I had just said, I could have booked them a holiday to Africa for all I knew)  Were these people who chose to listen bored with their lives? was no one available to chat on facebook? surely there had to be some explanation.  Some, and this is my particular favourite would pretend to be interested for five minutes listen to what I had to say (believing in some way that they were actually wasting 'my' time, the irony kills me!) and at the end of the call swear or sometimes laugh at me and then slam the phone down.

So the wheels have been in motion for some time and I either step up to the mark and make a leap of faith now or forget the whole damn thing because it is beginning to sound like a pipe dream.