Well here we are again, what is it with me, Fridays and insomnia? Oh well whilst I’m up, I may as well blog for a bit. A few things, Snowdon Sunday for the Macmillan nurses, can’t wait, I have no idea what I have gotten myself in to as I am hearing mixed reviews. Although I still find it bizarre that we are practising for Scafell on Snowdon, which is higher… maybe they should have thrown in Ben Nevis and then we would have completed the 3 peaks this year!
I have absolutely no shame so I am going to pop a link in here for my charity, as they do so much for cancer patients and work solely on a donation basis. I really don’t want to wittle on about it in this blog, as personal things are best left for my other one, but I am doing this for my best friend Sarah who has recently had reconstructive surgery and is undergoing chemotherapy at the moment for breast cancer. I have broken my heart and laid myself bare in my other blog, as I cannot believe what she is going through and feel so utterly useless, but as she may possibly stumble across this, I will leave it alone as some things are best kept private. Although, I will say I am actually doing this climb to make myself feel better as I can honestly say I have never felt so helpless in my entire life. Especially, as she has always been there at the most crucial times in my life, she even held my hand and made me smile when I went for my babies scans whilst my estranged ex-husband propped up the bar somewhere (again something best left for the other blog).
I am pretty disgusted with myself that I still smoke, and I am off in a minute to crack open my Allen Carr book again, I hope to finish it before Sunday so then I have conquered two things when I get to the top of that mountain! I have to do it for Sarah but mostly for my children, I get angry when I know full well what I am doing to myself and think of Sarah’s kids and what they must be going through, but I struggle like mad with it. The last time I got to 3 months in and was so proud of myself, I have no idea what happened I suppose I just crumbled. I did put on loads of weight though, and lost my passion for cooking and food, instead snacking on chocolate. Oh well, that is just something I am going to have to work on.
Anyway off for a read and hopefully my tutor has marked my assignment so I can carry on with the rest of the course as I am falling behind, especially as my head is so full of other stuff…
0 comments:
Post a Comment